A drop of paint on canvas

I will start this, like I usually start my writings, with a question. Have you ever ask yourself how can a person be creative? You are probably THE creative friend, therefore wonder why people ask you the question. You also probably ask how can professional artists be creative? If you aren't the creative kind, like me, no matter... This isn't about any kind in particular, but an advice to how can someone be creative. How can someone be able to come up with ideas in an instant? Sometimes abnormal and out of the box ideas, but very, very logical. This isn't only about paintings, sketching, fiction writing... But the whole idea of, well, idealism. Creativity. I would like other views where people can be creative at the end of this post; opinions welcome anywhere.

How, then, can someone be creative? Is it talent? Is it luck? Did he just come up with the idea without thinking? Was she thinking about it at the time? The answer to all that is; Maybe. We'll never know unless one admits. Artists are always creative though, right? Here I refer artists to idealists. Creators.

Honestly, and I'm sure everyone cannot deny it, I think everyone IS creative. At any given time, given place. How, you may ask. One universal reason is that, you cannot be oblivious to the world. If I'm not mistake, Albert Einstein once said "Knowledge is Power". It's true, the more you know the more you can use information to extrapolate, manipulate, create, destroy, imagine, hope the happenings in this world. In a given situation where you have to be creative you will use your knowledge, various informations extracted int he past, to create something new. Say put something you read when you were in elementary school with something you watched just yesterday. Both information can win you over. Give a case study here; A kid read about cranes and pulleys when he was a kid. Now in his job he's told to carry a big load up a few steps. Yesterday he just watched a DIY show. He used his knowledge on cranes and pulleys' physics and the DIY tools to create a mini pulley for that particular job. That's being creative.

That is, more than less, true. There is yet one thing, maybe not the only one-other-thing but a big thing. One thing that affects our creativity.
A baby cannot be creative because he has not understood himself or the world. Kids between 3 to 7 years old are sometimes VERY creative it's illogical. That's because he has mastered the power of knowledge and understanding. New knowledge of the world, and the understanding of his own abilities. That is the other thing to being creative; To know and understand oneself in a new situation. the fact that one knows oneself well enough, very well actually, to be able to express. I can be very dull when coming to creating ideas that I never, ever say what my brain is storming in such situations. Now we know where I go wrong. You can laugh! HAHAHAHAH. Okay keep this writing serious...

When you think about it, your creativity can equalise what the 3-7 years-old kid imagined. The road to understanding yourself fully at this stage is hard. We grow, we experience, and we know more. We tend to shift ourselves... or being extreme, we change ourselves. Changing, growing, and experiencing ourselves to fit in our universal situation. I cannot say how exactly to be able to understand ourselves, you just do... After a long journey. In anyway, as our creativity range from dul lthings to very illogical things, equalising that of a mere kid, we barely blurt out our ideas. Here's where the fun comes in, I can tell even at an age of 25 and above, people will still have crazy ideas, but what stops them? Maturity. This is what also stops us from drawing elephants with wings. Ships that sail upside down. Cars that are driven by dogs.

here you have it, the key to creativity is knowing yourself and the world. By knowing the world you are fed various ideas from the dullest to the funnest. From the most corrupted of ideas to the most innovative. Also by knowing yourself you are able to express what is needed to be said and which kind of information is used for the situation.  Maybe that corrupted information you heard will create the most innovative inventions that saves the world. Mixed with the right innovative, fun, easy ingredients.

Dreamseller by Augusto Cury

Just a note, this post has nothing to do with the book Dreamseller-Augusto Cury, I just thought the title is appropriate, but hate not referencing to the author.


In a way, I grew up with a set of stubborn thoughts. Thoughts that I thought wouldn't be creative enough to differ. Okay I'm not saying I'm creative now, I doubt it, but I have managed to differ from my original set of thoughts through the various experience every human takes on in life. I grew up thinking that dreamers are high school drop-outs, people with no jobs, the homeless, the helpless, the druggies, and the hippies... Failures. Maybe not all of you think the same prior to 'growing-up', but in my mother tongue, in a way, the word translate into something like a 'hopeless hopeful' the 'hopeless' being an object or person and 'hopeful' being a feeling. I also grew up with a different set of thoughts that changes everything, that changes... the way I think. Dreamers to me are noe the hopeful, the intelligent, the inventors and the ones who will change the world. I would say 'one day will change the world', but in fact no, they already are changing the world. I quote from my friends, on their opinions of dreamers:

• Opinion 1: really creative and maybe delusional.
• Opinion 2: someone who has an unrealistic but great vision of what will come in the future. Will try really hard to make it come true.
• Opinion 3: someone who believes in the impossible and waits for the 'expect the unexpected' moments.

It's clear that what they think of dreamers, is the latter set of thoughts that I have thought of them. Although the first opinion has that opposing view of dreamers being delusional, or else, mentally challenged. I have to admit it's true. With all the historical geniuses, or high-achievers, not one I think, not one has perfect health. Albert Einstein had dyslexia, Graeme Obree had depression and attempted suicide. They wanted to either see the world in a better place or want to achieve over someone else. Einstein found or created the theory of relativity among other things, while Graeme Obree beat the cycling world record in his time more than three times. These are dreamers, stopping at nothing to reach the top of the world. Dreamers aren't people who just sit on their window sill and dream of a perfect world, but rather sitting at a lab or a bike and making it happen. Dreamers aren't the people who make a perfect world, but have a specific thought and work with other differing dreamers to change the world. An inventor will want to work with a designer. A psychologist will want to work with teachers. now go figure why...
Can a perfectionist change? Yes they can, but that's not what I mean. What I mean is that people who have such a tidy mindset and lifestyle will tend to do what they think is perfect and will act towards their thoughts. No dreamers are perfectionists, their thoughts race from the furthest tip of our solar system to the deepest core of the Sun. They have a wide range of thoughts, although I have said that they have a specific thought, it is because of that wide range of idealism that they find flaw in one thing (at times several things too) and move towards that specific thing. Before moving to the next flaw.
Think of the stars (these thoughts are now taken from a friend of mine) you will think of how vast the universe is and that is there a definite end to it? Or is it Infinite? There's no saying. That's how wide a dreamer's idealism are. Even if the universe is finite, how much ideas can you fit in it? you're barely a pixel compared to the Sun, and the Sun is barely a quarter of a pixel of the universe.

 This is not a challenge, but a request. A request for all of us to walk hand-in-hand to be dreamers. 

Dreamers who will change the world. 

Dreamers who will create ideas and make them happen effectively for the greater good. 

The greater good...

A character is an author's best-friend.

There's one thing about books, and there is another about movies. Movies have characters, played by actors. and Actors live behind the screen. But books... Books have characters, and characters only. And characters are played by the various personalities of the authors, and authors kill to kill their self-flaw.

I am no expert on book reviews but I can assure you I've read enough books to know, maybe not personally, how authors think. Neither am I an expert on movie reviews, but the wide range of media have allowed us to be able to know what happens behind the scenes, and the personal life of actors. Where am I getting at, you ask? This is to movie lovers and book lovers. To people who tend to be affected by such story lines that touch us, inspire us and/or make us cry. Also to authors, directors and book-adapted movies. This isn't a dedication, but an observation. I can easily say that you've been affected by a movie deeply, because I'm sure everyone does. Cry at the end of a movie, or laugh and share with friends how funny the movie is. Then there's the book, where you also cry at the end, or laugh. This time maybe alone, because you can't relate to anyone. Anyway that's not the point.

When there's a movie, especially when it's book-adapted and with a big star, a lot of people tend to watch it as soon as it comes out. Within the movie, then there's a death, let's say the main character's best friend. Everyone will be touched, and cry. Because it's a big star and his/her sidekick playing, the feeling is short-lived considering that, unconsciously, they think to themselves 'oh the star's alright, it's only 'a character' that died. For the people who've read the book, or watched it for the sake of realising the book, it's a different story.

Have you ever had days after reading a book thinking about the death of even a minor character in a book? Ever wondered, even though it's interesting that an author kills off someone, what that character left off in his or her world? I've went on at times thinking to myself "Why, just why? Someone else could have been killed off rather than -this said character-". I kept going on like this for several books before I noticed what authors, consciously or not, are trying to do. This isn't just any character, minor or not. It's the author themselves. In the FAQ sections, when asked why the author killed off the character, he/she would answer that maybe the character was a minor, or it was inspired by another book or a real-life person. That isn't the full story, trust me. The author did so to change the course of what the author wanted to happen back then. I don't have a book I wrote, I give you that, but I have spent my years writing creatively, whether it's school work or not. I have myself cried when I killed my own character, cause that's when I noticed I'm scratching off a part of me.

Why do authors do this? Firstly, we all have flaws, and if you think you're perfect, I just have three words for you, get a life. (There's a two word one, but let's keep it appropriate.) Authors do this to remove such self-flaws. They think that, if they can't get rid of it themselves, then let his creativity scratch it out. (Can I stick with a 'he' author, it's tiring writing 'he/she/them') He would then think to himself, how will I feel good about this? and he'd come up with something like "Okay, I will make this person(the representation of flaw) a really really nice guy with a dark back-ground, one that not even people inside the book knows. Then I'll kill him, because he hides many emotions and secrets that he's causing harm to himself and the -nation-" This is coming from a conscious writer. When the writer is unconsciously writing it, then he'd have a different approach. He would come up with a twisted-personality of a character of somekind, that in his head, he doesn't know where he came from, and dips him inside the book. Here's another situation, the writer is intrigued by his past. His past with a typical lunch-time bully. He felt that he should have done something about it, but since he grew up and is too late, he's kill him off in the book. Despite the possibility of the grown-up bully himself reading it, then the author will put a slight mock. That's how I see authors, a great one, or a minor author, the various genres, they are still alike. At times I fins myself smiling because I know why the author think like this, or what the author is thinking about.

Today is not what is to come.

overview: sudden midnight urge to write, and just because a friend, a special one, of mine said it was a good phrase.

We are familiar with situations like being paranoid about something, or just simply worried about someone a thousand kilometres apart, because you have a knotted feeling in your stomach. We are also aware that in the modern world, kids who's been affected by the media, social networks, and the rising numbers of bullying lowers their self-cofidence and -image of themselves. These events usually make one so confident, so strong in their social life, and within themselves turn away and change to the weakest and doubtful of beings.

How, then, can something that seems so simple, something that we can look past, not-so-easily in some cases, cause a person to breakdown inside? When someone starts getting criticise... Wait, not that. When someone starts caring about being criticised, they start noticing their flaws. That's how simple it looks, but no. It isn't their flaws that they notice, it is the possible flaw that they think other people see in them. This is a big part, but not a major effect. The problem isn't about caring about it, it's when they start to generate possibilities caused by these possible-flaws. Take a case example (no, this is not a true story case); A boy thinks that his friends talk behind his back. He then starts to brainstorm the faults he has done. In the next few weeks, he would just assume that they don't like him and think to himself "Okay if I talk to him, he'd ditch me. If I talk to her, she'd tell them I was a freak". This way of thought process will then build up, to paranoia, and will get larger and create a delusional section of the mind, and make every move of the subject something against you.

Back to reality. When reality of the boy is that his friends are as normal as a sunny day, and that an event has made this boy to detach himself from what we know as society, and try to blame it on to another source. Another possibility is that, his friends are still as normal as a sunny day, but he has done a fault, something he regrets greatly that in his eyes, it would change his friendship, while in his friends' eyes, it's just a common mistake, something they look past. This tends to cause people to be a perfectionists on the good side, but also depressed on the bad side, this is just because we're scared to confront our own problems and friends and assume what is to come. We tend to overload with the possible outcome but not the definite outcome.

Does society have an age limit as to what it victimizes?

This was a post I wrote for my other blog. Since that one isn't active, and this one is one of my best writings, I'm reposting it here. I posted this on (20-11-2011).

Don't ask how I will start this, or what exactly this -blog- will be about. Just several viewpoints of the world, starting from one most ignored subject, suicide. I was browsing through my facebook page when I saw one of the newsfeeds, and it says '10 year old possible suicide victims'. I personally find self-harming/bullying/depression an act of violence from society towards an individual, so I was outraged by this news.

http://yhoo.it/v3Cg8V ; this is the link to the article if you want to know how outraged I was.

Here I start. In fact, I don't know how to start, the fact on how much disgusted I am to society, or the fact that suicide is not the only answer.

If you've read from my other blog, you'd know my experiences, and I think I mentioned the Golden Gate Bridge documentary, if not then, it's a documentary implying the people that commits suicide there annually.

Well here's the thing, one of the worst enemies of society is bullying (my definition; the act of negatively criticising others without any basic knowledge/relationship about the person), in fact it's probably the worst enemy of society. Like the 2010 incident of 5 or 6 gays committed suicide because of cyber bullying. It hurts you know, to hear these news, it really does. I mean how, do you think, how can people do such things? are they not sane enough to think of the consequences?

Generally, when people hear the word 'abuse' they'll think of physical; hit, smack, kick, punch, you name it. Yes it's painful. Yes it's torturous. Yes it's inappropriate. Yes it is so out of the blue that it should be stopped! no shit right? But let me enlighten another perspective, if physical abuse is the majority knowledge, does that mean there are no other types of abuses? Emotional abuse, this is THE one abuse that I think hurts more. Everyone's been there right? family pressure, peer pressure. they affect your moods, psychological effect on yourself and towards others.

Have you ever thought, after one incident, or an argument you feel like killing that other person just because they don't agree with you? This is not abuse, but it relates, this is you defending your stand-point. You arguing on what you think is right. Now, emotional abuse is when, you're the topic of argument, but this time without a positive view, someone confronting you with your flaws, insulting you, irritating you. This is emotional abuse, or as we know it; bullying.

People usually wonder, or should I say 'Friends' usually wonder, why I defend someone who's not social being bullied by my own 'friends' they don't understand, sadly, the correlation between abuse and self-harming. These are obvious victims, while mostly we've heard that victims of self-harming are people that 'always smiles, is joyful and easy-going'. Life is not as easy as ABC. So you still ask, why I defend them? I love them. Love in the context of being faithful to humanity, to the world we are in.

Let's just get to the point, suicide. When we hear news about suicide, most of us goes like 'he's stupid for doing that.' or 'It's wrong to commit suicide'. YES, it IS wrong, YES it IS stupid, but then again, why don't we ask 'WHY did he do that?' No? never thought of it? okay. Fine, that's how the world is, maybe I can't change everyone's views, but nothing can stop me, nor can't I enlighten people with the different perspectives. At least, to see that suicide is not fully self-inflicted damage. See the news article for example, she was still 10 for god's sake. TEN-effing-YEARS-OLD! she was called 'fat, ugly, slut' she DIDN'T even know what 'slut' meant, she HAD to endure all of that, ALL of that, and decided to end her life? I got some feedbacks saying she was 10, she didn't understand it. Oh trust me, I understood more than suicide at that age. more than that.

So why? Like I said, emotional abuse, not everyone can cope with the toughness of the reality. Not everyone. The image of 'the act of ending one's life' is a low-classed humanity right? what does that make of the criminals? the bullies? higher than them? no.

So here's the thing, suicide, on a certain extent, is not at all one's act of self-inflicting harm. Its, in fact, society's act towards an individual which has a weak defense against him/her-self. They're afterall, victims of society, victims of abuse. Abuse which has no competition, manipulation of the emotion and mind.