An alienating influence

I was watching Chronicle the other day, the movie of three boys who had superpowers from some kind of radiation. I guess this will be a bit of a spoiler, but I'm writing it anyway.

So this movie was about how three boys found out they had the ability of telekinesis, the power of moving objects without contact. Now here's the thing, they're good boys, no trouble, I guess just young adults who wants little fun here and there, jokes here and there, but no major victims or anything. One of the kid had an abusive family therefore having the power was something to vent to, he'd fly his camera around the room instead of sleeping and all that. The movie itself, you'll have to watch it, here I'm talking about how a protagonist becomes an antagonist.

I'm focusing on this abusive family kid. So basically this kid was a loner before he came close to the other two, and then they got the power, which then linked them, even closer. No one else knows about this power, so it's a secret that bonded them.

Somehow his father talked to him saying that originally he had had no friends, and that all of his friends are fake, no one to trust, etc.

Here's the thing, this kid doesn't look up to his dad, nor does he even like him. So why, in the end, does he listen and believe his father?

If you're reading this, I assume that you have a sibling or two of some kind right? Probably a big brother and a smaller sister, or a sibling of the same gender. As you grow up, there will be controversies of opinion between you and your sibling hence the buildup of sibling bonds. This kid, he didn't have any siblings, and as a guy the person he looks up to is his dad. The only, yet abusive, dad he has. Question is; why does he look up to a guy he doesn't like?

We all have our own role models, may it be a famous person, or someone in your family. This person is the person who you'd look up to, believe, and expect from right? At one point or another, you'd find flaws in this person, and ask yourself, can I really believe this person? But in your conscience that was a rhetorical person and you'd stick to this person the rest of your life. You would simply believe or trust this person won't you? BUT, if you didn't have anyone else but your abusive dad, who would you look up to? Who can you believe?

Hard question wasn't that. My point is that, some people look up to the wrong models, they look up to that model out of desperation of options, they don't know anything about the world, but from that person, and if you've stuck to that person since your childhood, you would listen to him and think about what he's said to you, however much you dislike him.

So think of it this way, if you're a guy I assume you look up to your dad more than your mom right? (Vice versa to girls) Now, what if they were abusive? See, you can't see them that way. If they were abusive, you'd fantasize them being normal, and this was what the kid was doing, he listens to his dad, as much as he hates his dad, whatever his dad says sticks to him.

Ever heard the quote 'Love can make people do crazy things'? Well desperation can make people be crazy. The kid was desperate enough to know the world through someone else's eyes and his dad was just the one to give him that vision, even though it's negative. He believed, acted on even, to what his dad said. He had no friends.

If you were convinced to have no friends, you would leave your friends and detach yourself from the social groups, slowly but surely. Some will notice, others won't. The ones that notice will try to boost your self-esteem, yet you're so convinced that you didn't care anymore, hence you'll do crazy things. Do things that are so selfish that you think won't affect anyone, but in fact it affects your friends.

I may not be perfect. We aren't.

To be honest, I haven't had any inspirations, or rather topics I've wanted to write lately. To be honest to myself, no one reads these for granted. It's that time in life where, there are so much going on, yet so few happenings at the same time. It's that time where you can't really express yourself; what you want, what you need, what you're looking for. Who you are. Who you will be.

There was this author who came to my school today, I gotta say the way he writes, I can relate to. So I'm just going to talk in general, the title, at this point I haven't thought of, so whatever it will be, it's not link to any of the text so far.

What I want to talk about now, is nothing in particular. Nothing specific. Just simply everything in general. I may not be perfect.

We've heard that said so many times by so many people 'I know I'm not perfect' but why is it then, these people still think they matter. Think they exist. Think they're THE one. I will be honest, that I'm still like that. Everyone is. If I say we can't avoid it, I'm wrong, but if I say people can leave it be, I'm also wrong. It is thus unavoidable human nature, but it is preventable. Arrogance. Pride. They're the main factors in such humans. Experience. Knowledge. they're also the characters of such personality.

So often I'm in a situation where one person is rationally right, yet the other is considerate. If I think about it, both are right, and both have a stand point, but at times I just think why can't they see it any other way? We are not perfect.

Narrow minded people. Sometimes I forgive them, for their lack of knowledge, lack of experience. Let's get to the point, I'm South-East-Asian, living in an Arab country, learning in a western (English) community, I can say without doubt I have at least a taste of different cultures of half of the world. I've lived, bullied, loved, cared for, left out. I can also say that I have a rough idea of how a lot of people are feeling right now. There are certain things I have not felt, suffering. I know my place, I know my stance, yet I have my reasons and in the journey through all this, I have my experience with me which helps me think everything through. Analysing consequences. I am not perfect.

I don't know how to end this, or conclude all this. Was this an overall image of how I see people around me? I'm not sure. Was this just how selfish people are, including me? Neither am I sure. All I know is that, this is a simple observation I made among my friends, the bigger picture. When I say my friends, I mean every one of them, the geniuses, the not-so-smart ones, the averages, every-single-one-of-them.

What would one do to the other?

For this particular text, I would just say my inspiration comes in physical form. This is one of those topics where, literally, not everyone reading this will know. I mean, I'm the kind of person who believes there is one person out there who is made for you, and just for you. Yes I wrote about how love is when you make someone perfect for you, but then again there are times for people, that meets a particular person and just clicks with them. Yet in this case, the feeling is instantly mutual.

A nostalgic picture for me, but a really new experience for a person. This is a circulatory system where, whatever's old news to you may be a surprising information for another.

Let's kick-off with what exactly am I talking about. I'm talking about certain situations or happenings which happen in lucky people's lives. This is when you like a particular person, you just like them. Like you don't exactly know them, but you like them. Then at one point both of you finds out you like each other.. it's the best feeling in the world right? Then the time comes where you're in a position to talk to one another. No I thought so, you don't have anything to say, not even any basic things.

It's not a bad thing, no. It's just that, these particular situations, you can't put a word into it.

At another point one and/or the other will think things like, Does he actually want to talk to me? or Were people serious that she liked me? Then we get paranoid to what the other thinks and don't struck up any contact at all.

What exactly happens when this kind of thing..happened? I couldn't out it into words, but this is what I came to; one. is that that person sees you the same way you see him/her. two. is that he/she feels the same way you do towards him/her. And the third reason, and the strongest one, is that you want to know more about each other, yet you have that feeling where the other isn't willing as much as you do. The question is, What would the other do?

I cannot give a just answer. All I can say is that, don't expect the other to start. Act with your own instinct and do what you think its best. At times it becomes disastrous, but with these kinds of situation, however disastrous it may be, everything will piece together again, good as new.