Today is not what is to come.

overview: sudden midnight urge to write, and just because a friend, a special one, of mine said it was a good phrase.

We are familiar with situations like being paranoid about something, or just simply worried about someone a thousand kilometres apart, because you have a knotted feeling in your stomach. We are also aware that in the modern world, kids who's been affected by the media, social networks, and the rising numbers of bullying lowers their self-cofidence and -image of themselves. These events usually make one so confident, so strong in their social life, and within themselves turn away and change to the weakest and doubtful of beings.

How, then, can something that seems so simple, something that we can look past, not-so-easily in some cases, cause a person to breakdown inside? When someone starts getting criticise... Wait, not that. When someone starts caring about being criticised, they start noticing their flaws. That's how simple it looks, but no. It isn't their flaws that they notice, it is the possible flaw that they think other people see in them. This is a big part, but not a major effect. The problem isn't about caring about it, it's when they start to generate possibilities caused by these possible-flaws. Take a case example (no, this is not a true story case); A boy thinks that his friends talk behind his back. He then starts to brainstorm the faults he has done. In the next few weeks, he would just assume that they don't like him and think to himself "Okay if I talk to him, he'd ditch me. If I talk to her, she'd tell them I was a freak". This way of thought process will then build up, to paranoia, and will get larger and create a delusional section of the mind, and make every move of the subject something against you.

Back to reality. When reality of the boy is that his friends are as normal as a sunny day, and that an event has made this boy to detach himself from what we know as society, and try to blame it on to another source. Another possibility is that, his friends are still as normal as a sunny day, but he has done a fault, something he regrets greatly that in his eyes, it would change his friendship, while in his friends' eyes, it's just a common mistake, something they look past. This tends to cause people to be a perfectionists on the good side, but also depressed on the bad side, this is just because we're scared to confront our own problems and friends and assume what is to come. We tend to overload with the possible outcome but not the definite outcome.