Have you ever wondered, when someone broke down in front of you and you didn't expect it, how did they hold it in in the first place? Have you thought why you never noticed them? Let's be blunt, this is for the people who cares, and wants to be cared for. Not for you judgmental people.
Being honest with you and myself, I never thought of this. I just thought that everyone who can hide their feelings are able to take on their problems alone, and everyday. They suffer the constant breakdowns and emotional swings that comes and go in short periods. I thought that, they're able to fake that smile into originality, or that breakdown into an active, hyper-self. I thought wrong, or well at least I think I did.
Do you want to know what I think? I think that they never hide it. Simple as that. Okay they may cover it up sometimes, but they don't hide it.
As to why, I'm coming onto that. I'll kick it off with an easy metaphoric sense. Imagine a gift you just got from a close friend. Now imagine that gift is something special, vulnerable and precious that you don't want anyone else to know about it (Or leave it alone), but as you're walking you meet a lot of friends. If you were to hide it, say under your shirt, the bulge will show right? If you hold it behind your back, you have to keep your arms behind you too. These actions will, of course, rise questions to you by your friends. 'What are you holding?' 'Why are you hiding something?'. For people who wants to be heard, then this is what they do, they want to act as if they're hiding it. Beside the point.
Imagine that this special gift is your vulnerable and fragile feelings (or personal issues). Excuse the difference of a special gift to a negative feeling. It's pretty harsh that I compare a feeling with an object, because emotions are very very fragile, but then again objects can arise past emotions. Imagine you just had a pretty rough weekend, and when you come back to school, you don't want any of your friends to know you're down because you feel bad you'll definitely try to hide it. The next moment, some of your friends start asking questions because you're acting differently, this is what happens when you try to hide something. You over-react or over-do something that should be normal, which makes that action out-of-place to your friends. You're still wondering how people hide their feelings I hope.
Out of all this, I think that what people do, is that they actually don't try to hide it at all. Their face is like an open book. Their actions is like a snail sliding slowly and a cheetah running fast, normal. They live as purely who they are behind the so-called cover or mask. It's something you won't believe. Let's bring the special gift back. Imagine that this gift was a ring your friend gave. In the first time you were given it, you didn't try to hide it, and despite people asking what it was, you can make up an answer like 'It was a late birthday present' and no one will ask again. The next day you wear the ring and they ask again who it was from, you can answer 'oh it was the gift I got yesterday'. Case closed. You wear the ring every day, it's a part of you. No one bothers you with it. It is this feeling, when someone ask and you answer 'oh.. I'm just tired.' They acknowledge you with it, and you do this every other day, they assume you're just tired. Make that emotion you. It's a funny thought, but it's really that because we are used to the norm that we don't ask, even if it really is a negative, out-of-place thing.
People who are able to practice this with ease, actually showing their emotions find that sadness (I have no idea how I can describe it) a comfort zone. 'When you're sad, you're in your comfort zone' I was told this once, and I understood it just now. People like this are so used to having their emotions swing, their urge-to-punch-a-wall come and go, and would deal with it with ease. You can say that this is what people call reverse psychology, actually doing something opposite what people are saying you do. People who hide their feelings doesn't wear mask. They, in fact, are naked.
So next time you find a person breaking down for a small thing, note that it's normal to you for a small thing to happen, but for them, it kills them.
It's not about what dress or suit you're wearing that makes you attract people. It's about how you can attract people with a plain shirt and jeans.
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