Disappearances

I stumbled upon this phrase in a book;

"Possibly it had occurred to him that the colossal significance of that light had now vanished forever."

I don't know how to start this, but it's just that oh I don't know. I know for a fact that I'm someone who longs for a lot of things. I also know for a fact that what I tend to long for are things that would really be very very precious to me. But of course, some longings gnaws more than others.

There are instances where I want things to happen like; know someone better, meet someone, write something or draw something. But these things are temporary. They tend to happen, and then go away as it is done.
Let me go off topic for a bit, this phrase basically means that, after a long time of wanting something and after hard work, when you finally reach the part where you get what you want, everything vanishes. Not vanish in a way that the work you did paid off, but more like, after all your attempts, failures and then getting back up, all you can think of is 'is this really it? This is what I longed for?'. It is that kind of vanishing.
I mean it happens, the fact that we are human and we never get satisfied of what we have. As a kid, I'd want a new gaming console and five games with it, I begged and begged. I proved my parents I earn it, but oh wait! When I finally got it, I barely touched it, I played it for a full day and left it to dust.

Back to what I've been saying, it's also not always your nature to not be satisfied. Say you want to know and meet someone so bad. Say he's a friend of your friend, and you've just met over the web and you guys just have awesome conversations. Say that. As soon as the day comes and you are to meet that friend, you are hyped. But then, oh this gets better, then he turns out to be the most arrogant, oblivious, and unhelpful person you know in person, where all your wants and longings to know a person in person just disappears.

A colossal significance that have motored you to your hopes and the wishful thinking of having someone new in your life and that he or she would have a big impact if you really know them in person just gone poof. Into thin air.